Some more things I'm thinking about:

1) It's not that much more money. I'm thinking only 8, maybe 9 bucks an hour. It does have benefits, but I'm not sure which ones exactly. On the other hand, I live pretty cheaply. On a third hand, Watertown is bigger than Ripon, so the general cost of living will be higher. On the fourth hand, I'm not really even sure how much I make right now. Tips make it all so screwy. I think the tips bring me to roughly $10-12 an hour at the restaurant on average, but the 15 hours a week at the bookstore are at minimum wage. So, let's just ignore all the math and pretend that the money is roughly equivalent to what I'm making now.

(So many hands here! I'm like a big ol angsty octopus, or something.)

2) D and I were talking last night. He said if I need the car, it's mine. I just have to trade him for the computer. I said no no no, you making the car payments is a critical part of the me saving money to move plan. He said he'd still help out with the payments. Hmm. I will probably need a car. And a computer is cheaper to replace. But oh, would those car payments suck, especially if I were paying full rent and utilities. This is also probably something that requires a lot more hands to think about than I actually have.

3) The new store would open in the fall. What exactly does that mean? I don't think there's any way at all I can move before September. I'd probably have to be down there at least a month before the store opened, to get it set up.

4) I had to call Matt last night anyway, so I told him all about everything. I was crying while we talked. Leaving Tau is so damn hard, even though I know it's something I have to do. He told me to think about what it was like the last time I left, but imagine it without D. That's a whole world of lonely right there.

5) It's ridiculous for me to be this stressed out right now. I haven't even applied for the position yet.

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