I've noticed that in at least one aspect, an online journal is significantly better for me than a paper one. Because I can't ever forget that I have the possibility of an audience, I'm much less inclined to obsess over things for weeks at a time. In my paper journal, nothing would have stopped me from writing dozens of entries about money, or what exactly moving back to Cowtown would really mean. I would go over and over every possible angle, and end up doing nothing but repeating myself, and feeling worse every time I thought of a new way to phrase the same basic idea.

Here, though, I've neatly avoided the whole vicious cycle. I know that my teeming millions would tire of me going on endlessly about Cowtown. So I make an effort to think of something else to talk about.

(Today, the subject just happens to be "Why I am not talking about Cowtown." There's a difference, dammit.)

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