That was a discussion I just did not want to have. Even though most of these people have aliases now, I still don't think I want my friends to find out I'm talking about them behind their backs. It's not even that I've really said anything bad. It's just kinda wierd. Would they still talk to me, if they thought I was instantly going to tell the whole online world?

I think if I found out that one of my friends was writing about me online, I would feel violated, but only if I didn't like what was said. Even if I did like it, I might actually get upset that there wasn't enough good stuff about me. I would be jealous of the people who got more coverage. But that might just be me.

I want to tell someone. I want someone I know to read this stuff, and love me for it. But I'm afraid.

I try to keep most of the really bad stuff out of here. I have a private online journal, that no one will ever see. But what if my judgement calls weren't right? What if something I happened to say in passing is the One Unforgivable Thing?

Feh.

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